Long Distance Relationship

I dn noe hw to cope with this...
I'm feelin insecure too...
But why r u treating me like this?
It's not easy for me to be strong...

So why are u keep pushing me to side?
I know that no matter I cry in my blog, u can't hear me...
U dn even know this link anymore...

I dn noe how to reach u...
I dn noe how to touch ur heart...
I dn noe wat I can do...
I dn noe what I should have done...

I can't sleep...
I don't dare to sleep...
If I'm asleep, I don't dare to wake up...

Would it really be better if I were to disappear from ur life?
Would u then realised hw important I am in ur life?
Or... Would I just become a small fragment of ur memory...

My mind... My heart... Become really unsettle with all these confusing & yet frustrating emotions...

God...
Is this a test?
Haiz...

I dn noe hw much longer I can hold on...
I dn think I wan to continue to be like this...
My heart is aching...
My lungs are gasping for air...
I feel like I am suffocating...