Every now and then...
I'll be really scared...
Truthfully... I dn even know whether or not he loves me...
Yea... I know... It's been 11 months... And yet... I still can't trust him...

Evry now and then... The fear haunts me...
That fear cling on me like an unbreakable metal chain...
Haiz...
The thought that he still has feelings for her... It's really... Troublesome...
I'm an idiot to begin with... I mean... Why the hell would I think of those thgs so suddenly??

Haiz... I despise myself...
For being a nut head...
Unable to think properly...
Unable to judge properly...
And most of all... I think too much... X_x

I kept thinking... "Aaaw, they're so lucky to have a guy like that to be by their side"
BUT... Why can't I think the same??
Why can't I appreciate what I have??
Haiz... Idiot...
It's just... I feel like... It's just the matter of time... That everythg ends...

Haiz... Why the hell would I feel so insecure for??? DX
Why can't I just bloody stop thinking about this thgs.......... T_T

Well.. Sorry for saying this but seriously...
I got real pissed off with stupid questions like tat...
Coz... I mean it IS real stupid...
Oh... So now u can get angry at me for asking silly question but I couldn??
I gt pissed because... I was like "can't u uds te bloody situation??"
Can't u uds me after all tis long??

I dn really like tat food since I didn ordered it... And it's kinda like a little good deed I did for finish te leftover... But yet you still gonna ask tat kind of question to me...
Yea yea... I'm rude... Got no moral edu or watsoever...
Anythg u said it's ALWAYS bloody right... Happy now??

I have to be the tolerant one...
I have to be the one to hold everythg up....
Erggggghhhh!!! I really fed up wit tis goody goody thgs I'm doing....