Just like the title has indicated, he wanted me back in his life...
I... Just don't know I want it to be like or not..

My heart... It's not ready for another breaks up...

I don't even noe wat I can write in this bog anymore...
The thought is good as empty like my heart....
Too scared to move forward....
Too scared to do anything regarding love...

Why must it full of sadness?
Why must I cry over n over again?
Why couldn I choose him eve though I love him?
Why would I feel tis lonely?
Why couldn we stay together?

I'm scared to meet him...
I'm scare of d outcomes...
Even if it is the good news I expected, but... I'll jz feel insecure again...
It would like hell again...
Again I need to worry when will I get dumped...
Even if it is the good news I expected, yet... I couldn... choose to stay...

I feel stupd... Y not if I love him?
But... I know deep down...
It's bcz I love him... It's bcz I love him too much...
My love for him is way beyond bigger than his...
That's y... He wouldn come to love me as much as I do...
In turns... He'll nvr appreciate me...
And... Again... He'll break my heart for the 3rd time..

I can't..
I don't think I can make it with the 3rd...
I wan 2 protect it from breaking again...
I know it sounds like a coward 2 run away... 2 avoid it... 2 b tis stupid...
But I jz noe... Deep down... He wn ever chase me or even stop me from going away...
It is jz te way it is... It is jz te way HE is...

Truthfully...
I miss him.. My most unforgettable day wit him is our 1st unofficial date...
We didn do anythg special other than talking, walking around n watching movies...
Since we aren official yet...
But... I still had fun...