How to forget when you really hold that person dearly?
How do you let go when you're about to let go the best thing that have ever happened in your life?

I don't know what I love about him
but I just do...
I don't know why it's so difficult to let go of him
but I just do...

I hate these feelings...
I hate being lonely...
I hate these struggling...
I hate waking up crying...
I hate having these tears wetting my face...
I hate to be so far away from him...
I hate the fact his feelings for me is fading away...
I hate all these...

Haiz...
What can I do?

After so freaking long...
I still feel hurt... Pain... In my heart...
When would it stop?
How can it stop?

Exactly 3 days I have not been contacting him
Nor do I browse his fb...
I am tempted... Really really tempted...
But... I just want to get over this...
Because I know if I fail now... There's nothing good will come...

Every time I smsed him or I browse over his profile, I end up feeling sad...
I don't really wanna go through tat again...
So I really think it would be better by giving us a time...

I still think of him...
Every moment of my life... No matter how busy I am...
I miss him so much... But... Nothing I can do now till I go home...
I hope I have made a right decision..
I know many will think I am being stupid for putting a fight for this...
But... I just don't wanna regret...
I just don't want it to end like that...
I can't really explain why am I feeling like this... Or what is it that I am feeling but I just hope it isn't in vain...