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Well...
I don't know what to put the title as.. :(

Haiz..
Wtvr it is...
The only thg I can do now is blogging...
Now... I just feel really sad and disappointed...
I just want to let it out...

The thg is...
He promised me that he'll go with me...
He said that he will forsake the chance to go with his fren so that he can go Genting with me...
But... Haiz... Now look at me...
I'm pitiful... I'm miserable... Frustrated as well...

Yea... I know it's too good to be true but yet I still believe him...
I... Save up all those money...
I plan and I dreamt about wat I could've enjoy...
But... There is always a but at the end...
It become worse when meaningless apologies comes after it...
Sad... Just sad...

Now I got the chance to used up all the money I have saved for him...
That is to go Sunway Lagoon with my frens...
I mean why should I sacrifice this chance when he won't appreciate all those...

I'm tired of keep hoping for smthg that doesn't and won't bring much of a difference...
Tat's why... Even if I ask "are you free that day?" but that's the only extent i would go so far...
As in... Enough planning an outing for now... Enough wit the invitations and such...
It's supposed to be his job, not mine... Coz I feel stupid whenever he breaks his own promises...

I was like... Why did I even give him a chance anyway...
Even if i want to... But my heart can't take further disappointments from him...

Is love always just words but actions speaks ortherwise??
I'm sick of relationship actually...
I feel "dead" to continue...

Can't he see it?
Can't he feel it?
Can't he do anythg about it???
JUST STOP BEING SO PASSIVE FOR GOD SAKE!!!
CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I'M SUFFERING?????!