Reasons

Reasons why I wanted 2 do that...
Well...
I had enough of loneliness...
Both my parents are healthy & are alive...
But... That are smthg I lack of... That is care & love of a warming family...

I wanted a relationship opposite of my current situation...
I just don't want to repeat te same cycle of loneliness...
No... Meeting isn't essential... But... Without it... I feel lonely...

Starting a new semester...
This aldy influence much of our conversation...
Less & lesser time to communicate & interaction...
So tell me will longer dist pull us apart or pulling us 2gether??

Fear & worries are convincing me to stop gambling with smthg that won't succeed...
Oh God... Again... Fear.... My biggest nemesis...
Okay.. I gotta admit... 1 year... Is not enough 2 prove anythg... & actually... It doesn't mean te longer it is, te more secure te bond will be... No... Certainly not... Relationship doesn work that way... Trust don't work that way...
I begin 2 realised... He do love me... I was touched deeply at tat point....
Wat I'm worried is... Will he continue to be serious with me?

Seriously... When person that is indifferent by nature, how do we know when he start 2 be serious?
guess my biggest problem isn't trust but my vision... Poor & lacking of observation.... Haiz...